| XANGA IS GAY I LOVE YALL CALL THA CELLY 269-2775 |
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| Just got back from Phoenix dang it was so hot but yea then went to new mexico and well my whole trip just kinda sucked! but i did get a lot of clothes and a REAL loue vuton(sp..)
but well when i was comin back home on tha plane their was this weird 16 year old who kept starin at me and well then he started givin me presents and sayin "WEIRD" things but yea then some HOT guy that goes to UCA was like you dont needa be talkin to my sister like that and that guy just kept sayin he was falling in love with me and crap but yea i had like half tha plane take me to my mom! i was soo scared but anyways if anybody wants to hang out just call tha cell!
I LOVE TREVOR |
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| IF ANYBODY WANTS TO DO SOMETHING
THIS WEEK PLEASE COMMENT ME OR
CALL IF YA GOT THA NUMBER!!
FRIDAY-
School-6th period was fun haha hunter kelsey and karson!! Then relationship DRAMA!! who cares anymore!! its done!!
SATURDAY-
Right when i woke up i had to go to tha batting cages uhh but then went to little rock saw a movie ate out and then came back to conway shopped and got some cute shirts!!
SUNDAY-
Went to church then after went to my youth pastors house at 2 and i was their till 11 30 sumthin and well that was so much fun i really needed a good ending to my weekend and well rachel spent tha night and we watched movies and went to bed about 4!!
well i love all of yall and Trevor!!
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| ok so i have been lookin at all tha old post he use to right and now it just hit me.. back then it was like love now i dont know what it is i mean i know i love him but it feels like everyday we are in a fight it kills me and i really hate it because everytime we do get in a fight which is EVERYDAY when i tell him i have to go it is because it hurts so bad to fight and i dont want him to know that i have to cry and that is why i cant believe him over some ppl because i am so scared that it is true i just want tha old love when everyone knew that i was his and i hate this he knows he has my heart in his hands and he still continuse to break it even more...i just feel like what ever i do im not good enough for him my friends my parents it kills me!! i just want for once want to feel like they can all just love me for who i am not who i am trying to become to make all of them happy and i know that this seems like omg poor me but i mean i just feel like i can do so much better but then i let more people down and right now the person that i have told this to just feels like they are getting farther and farther away and im scared he wont be here for me in even the close future!!! right now all i want to do is try and make myself happy for once and i dont think i can do it!! and TREVOR no i havent stoped and i dont care what you think about it and you can tell who ever tha hell you watn but its not gunna change shit and if you are wunderin what im talkin about well it was those 2 things i told you about and you were like o im gunna tell ooo but i dont care and i want us just to stop all the fighting because it is killin me well gosh i dont know what to do with myself!! im gunna have to stop writing this because well i just cant stop crying and i just wanna try and sleep doubt i will be able to since i really havent slept well since all this started!!
IM DONE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO ANY MORE!! |
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